Can you believe it’s been 5 months since we moved to California? Honestly, I cannot. After having the busiest, most wonderful and yet stressful October before we moved here, our time getting used to our new California life has been somewhat, well, stable. Stable, but busy. And I would be lying if I didn’t say it involved a lot of questions as to whether we made the right move.
Don’t get me wrong: there are things I love about California. Springtime in California, for one, has been glorious, chock-full of sunshine and a certain excitement in the air. In fact, if you had asked me to write this post a few weeks ago, it would have had a decisively different tone — one more sombre, less hopeful.
But there’s something about Spring — I feel rejuvenated, in a way that I hadn’t felt at the beginning of the year, when typically I’m brimming with promises of a better-than-before year ahead. Blame moving stress — and a pile of never-ending life admin — but I just didn’t get that bug like I usually do in 2018.
A lot of this post-moving woe had to do with new-life, new-business difficulties. I will be honest with you guys: having budding freelance and blogging businesses that are just starting to gain momentum — only to move it 5,000 miles away to a new country — is not easy. In fact, I wouldn’t really recommend it to anyone.
Honestly? I’ve really not been able to get my blog off the ground since coming here. At least in terms of events, sponsorships and collaborations — a.k.a how my blogging career was growing. No-bar, full disclosure here. A lot of people don’t like to admit when they’re struggling. Well, guys: here’s me, struggling.
There have been many days through day-soaked tears that I’ve felt like giving up, but I’ve not even been entirely sure what that means. I’ve chatted before about this on Instagram, and I may delve deeper into the topic in a separate blog post. What do you do when “working hard and believing in yourself” just isn’t enough? For all the success stories that we compare ourselves to, there are infinitely more stories of struggle that we don’t see.
This is not me seeking pity, but simply to share with you the ups and downs of moving to a new(ish) country. There’s a lot of good, sure. But other parts of your life get impacted, too. I wish there was more candidness about this. If there’s one thing I promise you, my dear friends and readers, it’s this: I will always be candid with you.
But, with Springtime in the air, I’m trying my best to allow myself to simply enjoy, and take stock of all the positives.
We’re actually off to Charleston next week, and I am so excited. I’ve heard so many wonderful things about the Southern charm that winks in Charleston, and Stag and I plan on just soaking it in, strolling hand-in-hand, and of course, eating our way through the city. Expect lots of fashion and food posts in Wolf & Stag’s future.
But for now — as the sun shines just a bit stronger, Springtime in California growing by the time — I will remain hopeful. And not taking the good things for granted.
Outfit Details
DRESS | URBAN OUTFITTERS (FIT REVIEW HERE)
LEATHER JACKET | MASSIMO DUTTI (SIMILAR)
NECKLACE | LUCY WILLIAMS X MISSOMA
SUNNIES | RAY BAN
SNEAKERS | VEJA